Lord, as we begin our Lenten journey with you,
we recall what you desire: a humble and contrite heart.
You don’t desire our bank accounts;
you don’t quantify our popularity;
you don’t hope for our job titles;
you don’t seek out our righteous ideologies;
you don’t long to see how pretty or handsome we are.
You desire only where our hearts are; and the rest will follow.
And you do not desire a perfect heart, but a heart broken and wounded.
A heart of hope and a heart of sorrow.
Give us these hearts, O God.
Give us hearts that are unafraid.
Give us hearts that lead us where others fear to go.
Give us hearts that listen humbly and burn with a passion for justice.
Give us humble and contrite hearts.
Go up onto a high mountain,
Zion, herald of glad tidings,
Cry out at the top of your voice,
Jerusalem, herald of good news!
Fear not to cry out
and say to the cities of Judah:
Here is your God!
Here comes with power
the Lord GOD,
who rules by his strong arm;
Here is his reward with him,
his recompense before him.
Like a shepherd he feeds his flock;
in his arms he gathers the lambs,
Carrying them in his bosom,
and leading the ewes with care.
Isaiah 40: 9-11
After reading this small passage, the line that stood out the most for me is “fear not to cry out” that the Lord is coming. This is important to me because this is a problem that I had to overcome. During the second week of classes this semester, I walked into Campus Ministry knowing that I wanted to be involved with Bible study. I would soon be asked to lead Bible study and I knew that this was important because I believed that it was my duty to spread the word of God.
So, I walked into it with my head held high and with great expectation that the Lord would lead me through. Then, a couple of days before the first Bible study I froze up. I no longer had any confidence in myself. I began to tell myself that I mess up too much to spread the word of God; I will say something that will mess everything up, and I am useless. The night before Bible study I stayed up late reading over the material because I just wanted everything to go right.
I remember walking through the doors of Maria Hall and feeling relieved. I prayed that the Lord remove every sense of fear and anxiety and, because he is a mighty God, he came through. I am not perfect, but I serve a perfect God and I believe that he will soon return; I want to be ready on the day he comes. I have decided to stop living in fear of anything because I believe God; I believe that whatever he places before me is for me. I encourage you to do the same.
Reflection by Cenyeaa Williams, Junior Business Major